6/17/09 10:02 pm - mmm
hi people !!! life has been tough for me this few days.... but days like this just makes me wonder about things about maybe what i call life....
Has anyone actually wondered wtf am i doing on this god forsaken planet? anyone??? If you have thought of this before, u are definately not alone!!!! Because this dumb question has been popping in and out of my mind like some ping pong ball man... freaky...i know!!!!
Are we here to lead our life as an actor? any one guilty of being an actor trying to win the star awards, golden horse and the oscars?? some of u might think bloody hell wtf is kerwin talking about sia... i mean just ask yourself this questions are u guilty of wanting to satisfy everyone, trying to blend in with the newest "in" thing, wanting to be cool? if u say no, there are 2 outcome either you are lying or u have gotten rid of all the earthly desire If thats the case its timefor u to shut down ur com and run to the temple and stay there.
Where is our simple and carefree life that we used to have in the past and i mean really the past. Just having enough food to eat, enjoying quality times with your love ones and not worrying much about anything compared to the super hectic life that we lead now. Some say they need to lead the hectic life to gain self accomplishment but i bet to differ. I am pretty sure there are other ways to feel great about yourself or "accomplished". Are Big cars, big house, high position jobs the only way to make yourself feel that u have accomplished something in life or is it used to prove to others that u have accomplished something?? Just imagine if u take all the cash away, all the cars,house and everything away and there u are a CEO of a company (u have worked ur ass for like 10 yrs to get to the position) and theres other person B who is just a clerk and both of u are equally paid and stuff will u feel so accomplish? From what i think, i find that its just the prestige that "powers" our self accomplishment. (for this anyone have any diff opinion or stuff plz do correcct me )
Though i have said much, i am guilty of all the worldly desires... so yeah life sucks.. fuck my life !
Erm i got to go already because i am the so called " OVERALL TEAM LEADER" so yeah. bz bz bye!